Whats wrong with the world???

Ok. I read my friend Gina's blog, and now my 2 best friends, are not friends with each other anymore. And this morning, tammy starts to bitch at me over stupid shit. And amanda needs to shut her fucking mouth cause she is a bitch and doesn't know anything. LAst night, i was talking with my parents, well, my mom mostly, about bringin Mike to the dance on Saturday. Turns out he actual wants to go and hang out with me, but he said if a girl wants to dance with him, then i should just leave him alone. Thats only if a girl decides to dance with him. LOL. Anyway, we have a half a day today and that cool. And i still need to find a dress for turn-a-bout this weekend. And i have to get ready for this concert in a couple of weeks. Plus, I have bowling practice on friday at 2. Mike not coming to my house til at least 4:30, 5:00pm at the latest. Gives me time to get ready and him to spend time with me before the dance. Tammy is like, full hatred on mike and i don't blame her. Its her choice, not mine, to like him or not. I mean, amanda thinks he is alright, but tammy thinks he is a lil thief. He hasn't changed, love wise. I mean, he cancelled his date a freakin 24 year old chick to go with me to the dance on Saturday. I mean, i like mike, i really do, but he needs to change who he goes out with. I mean, if he had sex with the 24 year old, wouldn't that mean S. Rape? I don't know. Well, School is almost over and i got to go. I will write again sometime.

Turn-a-bout in 3 days

Ok. So as everyone knows, Turn A Bout is like 3 days away, and I still have no date. I am thinking but at the same time, having second thoughts about bringing Mike Space. He is this guy that has been like my best friend, well, friend, since I was five years old. But if i bring him, he is just goin to use me as an excuse to dance with most of the girls here in sidney. Which of course, pisses me off. I am thinking of not bringing him, but Andy is like, just bring him. Well, i have a problem with jealousy, and if mike dances with all those girls, I am goin to be jealous and pisted. No one else wants to go with me and it pisses me off. I will write later when i get to the club....

Family...

What the hell is wrong with my freakin sisters. Since Tammy got a fuckin boyfriend and Amanda is now hangin out with other people, I am all alone. And School, school is HELL!!! People think I am wierd and no one besides my friends here in school and at the club, likes me. I hate it. I just want to see my grandmother. But I am excited because super bowl is only 3 days away. I do hope we get to go in a limo. I <3 LIMOS. Limos are fun. We go all the way to bingamtom, watch a Bearcats game, basketball of course, then we go skating then open gym with inflatables. My buddy is goin to be my friend Alexandra, Alex for short. This whole thing is fro church, youth group mostly. I can not wait. I don't know what else to say. I might edit this l8ter.

LIFE SUX

Ok, why does my life have to suck so bad? I am so sick of being picked on and lied to. I like my friends, and they do try to help me sometimes, but i think it is hopeless. I can't find a boyfriend, some my friends don't like me, i think. I think i may lost a good friend cause i am hanging out with someone they don't like. And every morning, i get this wierd dream that I am on a cliff and my friends and even best friends push me right off the cliff. I am goin to find out what exactly my dreams mean. I am thinking that maybe i should not trust some of my friends until i get my dream situtated. If any of my friends read this, i am srry. but i need time to my self, until i figure out what us wrong. :'( I am srry, I am like crying trying to write this entry after so long, i might not even having a blog anymore. So, please forgive me.

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Skatin Rink Boy

OK <3. I think I am offically in love. Well, i was at the skatin rink tonite, and i met this guy who couldn't skate very well. So, he was sitting by himself, alone. So, being the nice person that I am, i went over and talked with him. Turns out, we talked for like an hour. He is a nice guy. And his looks arn't surprising. He is hot. I am hoping to take him with me to the Homecoming dance with me October 8th. He can be my date. He is so sweet. And he is shy sometimes. Which I find pretty cute. He is also nice looking. He also looks for a girl for what is on the inside, not the outside. I think that is so romantic. His name is Matt. He is also polite and sweet. ~lovely sigh~. I don't know what else to say. Well, better get to sleep. Night.

LIfe is Hard

I have 2 emails now. the_raven6966@yahoo.com and the_raven6966@hotmail.com
PLEASE, use the yahoo one since my other one is not cooperating with my computer. In other news, um, i know i haven't updated this blog like i should. But life right now is hard. My mom having MS and my sisters tryin there best to treat me like a person. And i am trying to get all my friend back that i hurt last year. And now i have one friend that is back. You know who you are. And, I did break up with John last week. I couldn't deal with it. Plus, i like john as a friend then a boyfriend right now. I feel he doesn't understand me well as he should. I don't know what else to say. TTYL.

Been A Long Time

Ok. Its been a long time since I wrote in this blog. There are so many questions goin through my head. Well, first off, my mom has MS. If some of you don't know, its a nerve diease. My mom right now is in stage 2, so a lot is goin to happen in a short time. In other things, me and John are still dating, goin on a month i think. Longest i have ever been in a relationship. But i don't know how long its goin to last, b/c with my mom having MS, i might have to give up a lot of things to help her out. But I am not sure. The Keystone Conference is next month on the 21st to the 23rd. I think we might be leaving a day early, I am not exactly sure. And I am hopein to go to a trip with Reality Check for a mini conference. But I am not sure. Since a lot of things are going through my head, I have a lot to think about. I can only go to the club on Tuesday's and Wedensday's to go to my meetings. But today is different b/c i have homework and I have to help my mom. Then yesterday, I had an arguement with freakin susan. OMFG, she is driving me nuts. All she does is blah blah blah. And more blah blah blah. WTF? Why do so many people i know have to be so stupid? Well, not a lot, but some people will get the idea. So, my day in school was ok i guess. I dropped a course, Business Law, cause it is way too hard. So, I am now in publishing. Which I think should be fun. I am also practicing for All County Chorus and I hope I make it. I really want to sing loud and proud. So, i don't know what else to say. I will hopefully be able to write tommorow. Bye